seriously, debaters are the only people I know who use blogspot. There is something we are missing here
So I don't think I'm going to talk about hawaii here, because honestly whenever I talk about there it is very boring. I mean, I had a good time, but recounting it is not particularly interesting, because it was nice because it wasn't particularly eventful.
Ok, so there is one thing i can talk about that might be interesting to some of you (tho I know not eric, this isn't really his kind of blog), because its more of an idea that an event. It was really weird, I was sleeping in the cot my parents bought at kmart the day before, and all of a sudden I had this "one day, you are going to die, and it will mean nothing to the world" moments. Have you ever had one of these? they suck, totally. I mean, you cannot get to sleep when all you think about is the insignificance of your life and your fragile mortality. And from that moment out, like every night before I went to sleep it would pop into my mind, kind of like when Sam McCree randomly appeared in my dreams for a week a couple of years ago and would say "Hi, I'm Sam McCree, and I have bad teeth" and leave my dream. Also, that same week I noticed my mom was reading the "Left Behind" books, and I was talking to her about it, and at that point I realized that I know very few people who are religious in almost any sense. Some of them are merely apathetic, others are outright hostile to the concept, but there's no one who's really into it at all. In fact, I don't like a lot of people who are like that, especially if they're really in your face about it. Then I came back, and today I found the blog of my friend mary from otown (for those who don't recognize the name, she's the one who went nuts over fourth of july. well, she didn't go nuts then, I mean, its really a process, but you get what I am saying) and apparently she is big on religion right now as well (those of you might remember that from the bowling post.). And it got me thinking, I'm not like "she's a nut" or anything like that, and I'm not like that about jeremy and joel either. I mean, if you find religion, more power to you. As someone who doesn't really have a belief system going right now, honestly, I would like to find one. But I know that in my current mindset, its just not going to happen. I mean, I envision it as something that kind of hits you, then the bond grows as you learn more about it, but right now I just don't see anything where I'm like "man, that all makes perfect sense". It would be nice, but it's just not there.
Now, when I say this, I'm not saying I would like to be denise's mom or anything like that. But it would be nice to have something for those times when you're pondering your insignificance.
So I'm finally back from Hawai'i, man, what an adventure. The process of getting back there was a bitch, but it's really not worth repeating in detail; lets just say that a lot of waiting, anxiety, and stops in random airports were involved. As for stuff I did there, well, we did a lot of touristy stuff. My parents don't like to go to the beach, and we have only one car there, so we did a lot of outdoor stuff, but it wasn't the beach, like hiking and stuff. Still, it's cool, I like to hike. Got lots of clothes, which was good as I haven't gotten new clothes in a while, that was my birthday present, so i got kinda a west coast surfer look going on, as that is what at least 3 people have told me today. As for JET, getting that stuff in was a bitch too. Honestly, while last week was wonderful, this week has just been so draining that I have been completely out of it. I guess getting about 4 hours of sleep every night doesn't help either. I'll give blogging more of a try later today.
