First of all, I would like to point people who already read all the same blogs to go to carissa's again, because i think that the whole situation she is in is very interesting with the sexual harrassment stuff, and as a guy I guess I feel that I've never been put in that part of the perspective, and I didn't really think I would know anyone who would be put in that situation. I guess I don't get how people cannot understand how their actions affect others either before or after the incident. I mean, there are a lot of times where I said or did something without thinking about how it affects others, but then afterwards I would think about it, and this would definitely affect my future behavior. To just go around and repeatedly make people uncomfortable because you need to get your rocks off is plain being an asshole. I mean, it's abuse of power, and I think of all the things in the world, abuse of power, intellectually, is the one that pisses me off the most.
so this weekend I have spent almost all of my time in the apartment, because I have tonsillitis and no health insurance, so I didn't get anything else to help it until today. Either way, it was a nice, quiet day other than the constant pain of swallowing. Oddly enough, the girls did a ton of cooking and stuff, and yet the kitchen is cleaner after they were done than before. Either way, nice to see it looking good.
As for other stuff, my mom called before we started watching a movie, and I think for the first time in a long time, she was pretty much just like "stop ignoring me when I give you advice." The problem is that a lot of times I do take her advice, I do just need to think about it for a few days. However, in this case I'm pretty sure she isn't really up to speed. I mean, I know my parents really want me to go to grad school and stuff like that, but honestly, I am just not interested in that right now, especially one I would take online while I am in Japan. First of all, I don't really want to go to an "online school", I'm a little bit of a reputation whore and I also know my study habits. I need a classroom environment in order to do actual work. I mean, I'll be the first to say that up front. And second of all, why the hell am I going to spend more money to get a masters degree in something that I might not even want!? I mean, I don't know what the hell I am interested in, why would I be like "oh, I should go to school just for the sake of going to school?"
I guess, in general, I am in kind of a holding pattern right now, but here is how I feel. All my life, I've been rushed with schooling, and I am sick of it. I don't want to get a degree or go to school because I can. I've done that, and I guess it was nice, because it gave me something to do. And I want to go back, I really do, I mean, I think it would be fantastic! At the same time, I also want a few years of goofing off, of having a job that lets me do something new and interesting, and that's what JET is doing.
Basically, I know what I want in the future, and it is also what my parents want, but they want me to do it now, and I want to do it two years from now, one year in japan, the next year taking some courses to prep for the math I would need to get the job done. That would mean 3 years between undergrad and grad work. I would be 23 entering my first year of grad school. This is when a lot of people enter grad school as soon as they graduate. I don't think I'm really asking for a lot.
